The ADHD Turtle - Strike Out Exit

Behind The Making of "Strike Out Exit" by LN-6

I released a "new" song under my Artist LN-6 today! It's a song called "Strike Out Exit" that I created years ago, but decided to finish it up and publish it :).

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Behind the music:

I was in love at the time. I just remember that he kept saying I was too good for him and he would just bring me down and be a bad influence. He would look and look for an exit out of the relationship for this reason. I know it could have been a "nice" way of just trying to get out of the relationship but it seemed genuine at the time because he was going through a lot of depression and PTSD. One of the hardest relationships I remember being in. I had a crush on him for years and we finally got together. I drove 7 hours to meet him down at the base he lived in. I made this trip a few times. I hate driving so, driving 7 hours one way....that is saying something.

I wanted to run away with him. I wanted him to run away from his problems and focus on what we had. I kept trying to get him to stop looking for a way out.

The last part of the song may sound like we lived happily ever after but really, I had to dream about things being good. In reality, he cheated on me and I kept trying to make things work. Then, he overdosed on some of his meds and he wouldn't go to the hospital so I ended up calling the cops because I was 7 hours away and couldn't do anything nor did I know anyone over there that could help. I was traumatized because I knew he would never speak to me again but I thought...I would rather him be alive and hate me, then die.

Years later he apologized. I never held a grudge. It took me about a year to get over him. I remember, since he wouldn't talk to me after the overdose incident, I started a letter notebook to him. I would write letters to him everyday in that notebook. I did that for a while. It helped me feel like I was talking to him even though I wasn't. It was a long time later that I ended up burning them. I didn't want to send them to him because I didn't want it to open up old wounds. I figured he had moved on and it would be better to move on as well.

Oh, the blindness you get when you're infatuated. True love takes work, infatuation though....causes people to be crazy and think they are in love but they aren't thinking with their brain. LOL. I was definitely infatuated but of course you can only see it looking back, you never seem to notice while it's happening. Of course I loved him and wanted it to work....but to have someone cheat on you and obviously want out of the relationship AND still want to make it work...I wish I could go back to my younger self and slap that idiot.